True Feelings (PART II)

Good day! I guess, I've really had a very not-so-tragic experiences few months ago. 

So before we proceed with my ever love story, here's my last post about a general topic about my life, I guess. HAHA. :p


This was written December 31, 2009.

                "Sometimes life’s too ironic. The things that you have wished for a long time, when you have it, you feel regretful but you know you can’t let it go. There’s always a perfect reason for everything that happens. Sometimes, it’s hard to understand why things are bound to happen but it’s one way of God to teach you to trust Him that He knows everything and what’s best for you.

                I make mistakes. But God knows, if only I have a choice I would rather not do such. But accident is not an excuse. You can choose to be more careful on doing such decisions in life, right? I know holding on to Christian doesn’t looks so right. Everyone seems to be against on what we have but when I pray, God always ends me up holding on. Not only because, I love him, but because God still uses me as His instrument to him. It becomes uneasy at times but God strengthens me to hold on. When I look in the future with Christian, it seems so vague. It seems unpleasing somehow but prayer changes everything, right? Though, I don’t want to end up miserable with him, I entrust God that in His perfect time, Christian will be able to live righteously. And that time, it won’t be hard for the both of us to let go one another because we know that God has better plans in our lives. But if it’s God’s will that He meant us to be together in the future, we’ll stick to it and be grateful about it. 

                In reality, as of now, I don’t feel he’s the one for me. I can’t even entrust Christian about my physical secrets, just like how imperfect I am. 

                Everything here in this earth is temporary so let’s cherish and treasure every moment while it’s there. God has wonderful surprises in our lives and even it may seem not good the way we look at it, God always ends it up wonderful.

                Without expecting and demanding anything, we invite surprises. Surprises are spontaneous when it comes. There’s nothing forever in this physical world so let’s stick to it and don’t make someone you love to be your world. God is the most powerful one, omnipresent, omnipotent. Who or what’s your focus? Is it your money, your friends, your special someone, or your very self? Why not give it a try to focus on God, His will, love and plans for you? Just give it a try, it’s more than you expect because God always has better plans than ours. Trust and have faith in Him."