It was written then October 28, 2010.
Here how it goes:
" It is not yet done. We don’t know if the result was a success or a failure to the group. But that was not the issue here. My heart is overwhelming with gratefulness despite of the fact that we might fail this subject but the thing is, we did our best. For having our sleepless nights, drained knowledge for giving much for our system, drained pockets for our overnights. Hahahaha. Ilan palang yan. For all our sacrifices just to make it. But things happen. Sometimes, in spite of all the sacrifices you made just to win something and even if you pray hard for it. Sometimes, just sometimes, you would still not get what you really, really hope for. Honestly, I feel so much depression up to this moment. Not only because of the chance of failing this subject but for all the things happened while we’re in the journey. Rejection. Attitude. I don’t know. It’s not that easy to continue your thing when you think you’re just so alone to make it. When you feel, the one you expect the most to be there for you just turned away and choose not to be with you anymore despite of the love you have shared with him. But life does not end there. You still have to be inspired then despite of that feeling. It’s not really easy to handle. It’s not easy to move on. But it’s the right thing we have to make. And I tried. And I’m almost making it knowing the fact that SSD needs me more than him. "
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